OT: Despair

Atrocities · #1 March 17th, 2006, 12:48 PM

Cancer, Aids, Depression, they are all horrible. To many of us have lost family to all of these.

I wish I could resolve the thingsthat cause my depression. I know that there is really no way that I will eve know peace. To much bad history in my life. I know that I, like so many others who fight depression, regret and dispair are our life long companions. The might have beens, what ifs just eat us up a little bit each day from the inside. I have so many regrets in my life that I honestly don't know why I don't punch out and call it quits. Perhaps I am a coward, perhaps I am just hanging on to the thin hope that there is always hope. To many regrets, not enough good memories. I doubt any medication could ever make it all better. So we suffor, but for the most part, we go on.

narf poit chez BOOM · #2 March 17th, 2006, 05:51 PM

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Atrocities said:
Cancer, Aids, Depression, they are all horrible. To many of us have lost family to all of these.

I wish I could resolve the thingsthat cause my depression. I know that there is really no way that I will eve know peace. To much bad history in my life. I know that I, like so many others who fight depression, regret and dispair are our life long companions. The might have beens, what ifs just eat us up a little bit each day from the inside. I have so many regrets in my life that I honestly don't know why I don't punch out and call it quits. Perhaps I am a coward, perhaps I am just hanging on to the thin hope that there is always hope. To many regrets, not enough good memories. I doubt any medication could ever make it all better. So we suffor, but for the most part, we go on.

It's not cowardice to face life. Living is hard. Dying is easy.

Atrocities · #3 March 17th, 2006, 10:17 PM

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AT, I'd be careful what you believe when you read a Scientology website. Their beliefs are rather...different from those of most people.

Oh I take it with a huge - huge - grain of salt. But given what had happened to me, how the medication hurt me so, you cannot discount everything that is said.

I do not subscribe to their - scientology - religion, but their statements, supported by some facts, regarding the mental health profession with there seemingly "pescribe the world" philosophy does have some merit.

Suicide Junkie · #4 March 17th, 2006, 10:34 PM

Society in general is in a pill-popping phase.

Everything was supposed to be coming in pill form, like on the Jetsons.

narf poit chez BOOM · #5 March 18th, 2006, 05:00 AM

The pills have been a great help to me.

Unfortunatly, so far the've been a help and not a cure. Which is not fun, sometimes.

Atrocities · #6 March 18th, 2006, 06:29 AM

Hell my current doctor, a new one since my PCP moved out of state last year, is one of those doctors that really pisses me off.

She is what I like to refer to as "Reset To Zero." Each time I see her, she has completely forgotten my previous visits. I have seen here now once a month for four months about the SAME back pain. And each time she refers me to PT and tells me that she will have an X-Ray done but she knows that "they will find nothing."

Well they did find moderate damage in Decemeber, and she was surprised when I mentioned this.

She asked me what I want her to do about? WTF? I want you to give me something for GD pain and stop sending me the GD PT because that [censored] isn't working! GIVE ME PILLS WOMEN!